I MISS MY MOTHER.

 

Bhool jaata tha parëshaaniyaan zindagi ki saari

Maa apni god mëin jab mëra sar rakh lëti thai.

 

Kabhi muskura dë toh lagta hai zindagi mil gayi mujhko

Maa dukhi ho toh dil mëra bhi dukhi ho jaata hai.

 

Maa pëhlë aansu aatë thë toh tum yaad aati thi

Aaj tum yaad aati ho aur aansu nikal aatë hai.

Only the person who lost his mother knows the agony of losing her. The pain is often so much for some people to cope with. The memory of a mother is unforgettable. Many of us have experienced this loss. We always miss our mother in whatever we do and wherever we go. But still, we keep moving on despite all this pain and mourning. Even after all of that, sometimes we find ourselves in situations where we cannot help ourselves express sad feelings about our deceased mother. We look for words to describe our emotions but do not always find proper words for them. For those of you whose mothers have passed away, here is my heartfelt miss you message for my mom after death to remember her.

Thirteen years ago I had to deal with the sudden and devastating loss of my mother, on 22^nd April 2010 and it seems it was yesterday as my mother’s memories are still there in my mind, heart and soul, even today I feel that she is inside me and that her spirit is part of me. I’m grateful to her every day for what she gave me and what that means for my life today.

I was lucky enough to be born and raised by a wonderful woman for a mother. She really was a free spirit and her guiding principles were to be as happy and loving in life as possible. These ambitions I feel she has passed on to me.

I am stronger and confident because I always have my mum in my heart, and she’s with me every day. Whatever I do and whatever decisions I take, I know she is right there, too, alongside me. And that means her loss isn’t painful, because I don’t feel I have lost her. I feel she’s with me. Through this memoir I would like to thank the dearest person of my life (My AMMI).

It’s in loving memory of my wonderful mom, who taught me from an early age how to be courageous and compassionate, I’ll never forget the influence you’ve had on my life with your unconditional love and wise counsel. May Allah Bless you with highest place in Jannat ul Firdous, AMMI! (Ameen Summa Aameen)

Dear AMMI, thank you for all the love you showed me. Even from heaven, your influence is felt in my life. I hope I can pay back one day the love that you have shown to me. Thank you for everything you did in your life. You were a wonderful mother and wife, as well as a good friend. I wish I could have told and expressed my love for you as how much I love you while you were alive, but since I have a strong believe that you can hear me even now, I want to let you know that I love and miss you very much.

Thank you for a great life! I love the walks for buying grocery with you, the picnics at the park, the reading in bed together, and most of all, our conversations. I miss you and wish you could be here with us. I know life exists after this one and am enjoying every moment spent with my family.

All I want to say is “Mom you are a great inspiration to others you shared your life so willingly with others, the joy you brought us will never end and one day we will be together again! Though we miss you we know You are with all our other family’s departed souls who have gone on before and must be in Jannah. Thank you for always loving me and guiding me. Even though you are no longer here with me I can still feel your love guiding me. You are always in my heart. I love you and miss you dearly. I appreciate all you do for me, and I will forever be proud to call you my mother. My life would have been much harder if it were not for you, mom.

"AMMI, I'm so grateful for the way I was raised. You were never afraid to be my mother — to put your foot down, to teach me right from wrong, to make sure I did my best. You always let me know I had a mama who cared about me, who believed in me, who was there for me no matter what. You were loving, compassionate, endearing, kind, protective, strong, extraordinary, intuitive, caring and mindful.

In the end all I can say is, despite how painful it is, remembering the joy and love my mother brought into my life helps me cope with her loss. I will carry your memory forever and miss you, AMMI!

My mother has made me laugh, wiped my tears, helped me in danger, and loved me a lot! So where are you now to comfort me? It’s EID Day and I’m feeling sad because it’s the day when my mother died 13 years ago and no one is there for wiped my tears the way you use to do. Miss you AMMI!

Oh Allah, please keep my mom in peace and grant her the highest heaven (Place in Jannat ul Firdous). And tell my mom that her son is missing her presence, after her death, there wasn’t a day I didn’t remember her. I can feel her presence everywhere. I hope she is in a good place now. Without you, the house does not seem like a house. No one can replace your place. I miss you, AMMI. Death must have taken you to a beautiful place. Which is called haven and I wish one day I’ll wake up hearing your soft voice. AMMI JAN, your son misses you a lot!

 

Your Loving Son

Ovais Asad Khan